My 2nd Life Transformation Journey

I’m going to share with all of you my Life transformation journey as a breast cancer survivor!

My Life Transformation Journey begin after my son embarked on his primary school journey. I always believe things happen for a reason but when it hit me, at that moment, is not easy to accept that statement.

On 4th January 2019, I felt some pain in my right breast, infact I felt that pain on and off in late December 2018. I thought is just normal pain but it became intense on 4th January 2019. I went to see my family doctor which I thought is just a normal checkup. But after touching and pressing on my breast, she suggested me to go for mammogram and ultra sound immediately. I follow her instruction, still think that is just a procedure.

After the mammogram and ultra sound, I waited 1 hour for the report. When I receive the report, I opened and saw some wording like 10% not breast cancer! So I assume 90% is Breast cancer ! My hubby is with me and he told me to wait for the doctor explanation since it is all medical term.

We travel back to my clinic and passed my report to the nurse while waiting to see doctor. I never see this doctor coming to the door to welcome me before. My first thought is... something is not right. But i still stay positive.

She ask me to take a sit and announce to me that I’m diagnosed with breast cancer! Hmm.. Seriously at that moment My first thought is.. Am I dreaming? I don’t have any reaction at that moment, she refer me to National cancer center for further checkup.

She told me 90% confirmed is breast cancer as it is irregular shape and has spread to my lymph node that is why is stage 2. I left the clinic, sitting inside my hubby car, still cannot accept the reality.

Tears occupy most of my nights keep asking myself why I’m the one? I relook into my house Fengshui and immediately move out of my bedroom room and sleep in my son room. Surprisingly, my right breast pain gone after I move out of the room.

I started to seek spiritual help and do more chanting daily and my mind getting clearer and clearer when days go by. I believe that since my family do not have any history of breast cancer, god want me to take this challenge on behalf of them! I shall accept it! As I do not want any of my family member to walk this path!

Very few people know about my breast cancer journey. It is definitely my darkest part of my life journey so far. And it actually change my perception of life. But I feel that I’m seriously very proud of myself for this whole journey.

But I’m grateful to have my sis in law cousin who also diagnose with breast cancer 10 years ago as one of my support throughout my breast cancer journey. And I’m also giving support to some newly diagnosed with breast cancer patient.

I’m also thankful of my hubby and mother to be my caregiver during my 10 days hospital stay after my 10 hours of breast surgery with reconstruction. It is definitely not a good experience to see your mum at her age still help me to bath and accompany me to sleep over during my hospital stay.

No one believe I have been through this journey as I always show the beauty part of me in social media. I want to let those people who been diagnosed with breast cancer to remember to love yourself and dress up. You can be sick but you can definitely recover if you have the determination to walk through it. For those who are healthy, please take care of your well being before you are being force to take care like me.

I will share more on my different milestone of my treatment with all of you.

Stay tune and Stay positive!